.Metamorphosis.

Ok the holiday is short.

Too short for us to be together.

And now, everybody's gone again. I'm alone again.

I'm alone in the house, keep surfing the Internet for the whole day.

I feel so lonely since I have nothing else to do but missing friends.

I don't wanna leave this city again. But I have to.

Chongqing...is somewhere I don't belong.

The people...I can't even remember clearly their faces.

Why did I choose this way?

I used to declare loudly, that I ran away to chase my dream.

But what's my dream? I can't describe it clearly...

It's not what I dreamt about some years ago...

It's so different now...

I'm just sad. About the lost dream. The leaving of myself.

I'm not so well today. But it's gonna be okay.

When I see him, I think of LT.

They're somewhat similar.

Though I always thought him ugly...==|||

It's not because they came from the same high school..Born in the same year, the same month...

But because...I'm not sure...Anyway they're both good to me.

Well well well well well..I miss LT. Just a little.

It's going to be Oct 4th. So I miss LT. Because I remember what happened 4 years ago.

Some bittersweet memories.

I guess he has already forgotten. Everything. Like he used to do.

That's okay.

Yes that okay. Because I knew him so well.

Hey Canton, I'm back!!

I love this city deeply, after one month out here.

It's the first time I took a plane, alone!

Wow I think I've grown up a lot.

Something I thought would be difficult wasn't that hard.

Well successfully I've moved a bit forward, a little braver, more sober.

About Chongqing...I have nothing else to say. I'm still so unfamiliar about the city, the people there.

I don't like the way they talk. But I'll just have to adjust. That's okay.

Germany...I guess it'll be hard to learn...But I'll work hard, I have to be good at it!!

Dormitory..Everyday I take 15 minutes to climb the mountain and finally get to my dorm...Well I'll be healthy and fit...It's great...In my parents' opinion...And in fact it is...But I'll have to get up early!!

Anyway, go on and shine, Starry~!!

All things packed.

All minds prepared.

All sorrow hidden.

All memories carried.

And tomorrow, my new life will start.

Get on the plane, then be brave.

I don't know what kinda life it will be.

Anyway, it's the way I choose.

It may be the punishment for my not-working-hard, or a lucky opportunity for me to be someone else.

Who knows. How I wish I'm who I used to be. So ambitious. So brave. So naive.

I'm never brave enough to take an adventure.

Maybe this time, I'll be braver than ever.

Some months later, I'll be someone else. More sober.More independent. More confident.

Watch me shine.

Today Suqin called me early in the morning(8:30...)

She'll leave for HK and her new college today.

She said Avril will hold a concert in HK at the end of the months...She thought I would like to come. But we realized that...I didn't even live in Guangzhou at that time.

Surely I'd love to come...But soon we'll be apart...I'm so far away from you all...

Avril used to be my favourite singer..When I'm in junior one and two.I love the album Let Go soooo much. But she has changed so much after that.

Suqin continuously said that...The song Girlfriend is so immoral...

Well I did admit that. It's so wrong to steal other's BF..I don't like this song at all.

After Let Go, there's no Avril I love any more.

Avril changed.

We changed.

Something good, something bad.

There's no way to stop the changing.

We're just trying to be good.

I began to feel bored since most of my friends were gone..

They have already started their new life.

I have no anticipation for mine.

In fact I don't want to begin my collage life, though I'm bored.

Life of the three months is just like a cup of pure water.

No special taste. But not disgusting. And I like this kinda life.

The 18 years of my life has no adventure at all.

And I'm not an adventuous person at all.

I'm just ordinary. And that's okay.

I'm not so ambitious as I used to be.

And though I WAS ambitious, I did nothing big.

After all I know what kind of life I want.

Peace is all I want.

Mom said collage can change a lot of things.

Well I guess so.

If I work hard, I can be someone else.

Germany. Well I have no special feeling for that country.

But in the next 4 years, I'll fight for you.

I've tried...But obviously I didn't figure it out...

Too many entries...And too many days...

I'm not so lazy...Anyway...I'm just not diligent enough to move all things here..

Well maybe one day Diaryland will be okay again..

Ok.The stupid Diaryland didn't work for a long time..

My diary page didn't show out and that really bore me.

I guess I need to pratice my English writing.

It seems impossible to move all my entries here...

Well it really confused me...==|||